I wrote this post on the eve of my 31st birthday. My 6-week appointment was coming up and I was feeling stressed about the results and the impending holidays.
For those that know me, you know I hate my birthday. December birthdays suck in general (there’s way too much going on with the holidays and it tends to be a stressful time) and on top of that, crappy things just tend to happen on and around my birthday (I’m talking car accidents, dog bites, family stuff). But I’m actually looking forward to this birthday. 30 was not my best year and I’m kind of excited to leave it in the past. We don’t know what the future looks like (does anyone, really?) All we can say right now is I definitely had cancer, that my HCG levels are back within a normal range and currently, there is no indication cancer has spread to other parts of my body. I have a follow up appointment with my oncologist coming up soon and then I imagine I’ll have to be monitored for some time. I know that means I won’t really be able to rest easy for some time, but we’ll just have to take that one step at a time. As for future children, I think we’ll have to follow the same formula. Our focus right now just has to be on health and recovery (though that hasn’t stopped me from starting to research options – I can’t give up all my obsessive control-freak tendencies just because I have cancer!) So, more to come, but for now we are ready to enjoy the December birthdays (we have 5 in the immediate family, including Penny) and holidays with friends and family and look forward to heading into the New Year with a healthier outlook.
Life One Step At A Time 